Wednesday Confessions

I feel like I don't do posts too often to just get out the many random thoughts bouncing throughout my head. And you guys, I have a lot of random thoughts. A lot of feelings. Just a lot of things. Sometimes it really helps to write it down and put it all out there, so here I am with my confessions as of late.

A lot of big changes are going on with the family lately. Some I am excited about, some I am unsure about, and some I wish just weren't happening. Regardless, it is a lot of change. A lot of big change. More life events happening now than have gone down in the past 5 years total. I feel like I am doing a lot of 'smile and nod, smile and nod' and trying my best to roll along.

Due to said changes, my mind has been super preoccupied. When major life changes are happening all around, it is hard to focus on work. Or school. Or anything that requires me to sit down and focus. Hence my complete lack of focus.

I started back up with school after three glorious weeks off the end of June, and am officially done today, after which I will be able to enjoy six glorious weeks of summer break before I go back for one final semeseter. You guys, I will officially have my MBA this December, and then I am saying adios to school for good! SO. DARN. EXCITED. I just might be wishing away summer and fall. Don't hate, I got my priorities.

My baby is busy, and it wears me out. I thought having three weeks off of class would mean more cleaning, organizing, and staying on top of groceries. Nope. Our house has been a mess, I have barely folded and put away laundry let alone organized, and we have eaten an embarrasing amount of pizza lately. Such is life with a 10 month old, I guess.

We have started on a new healthy eating kick (bye-bye, pizza). Mike is doing Isagenix again, which to be honest I am not sure what I think about. I am an advocate of eating healthy and getting all of your nutrients through food, but then again if a system like this jump starts some healthy eating and works for him, who am I to say no. Of course, healthy eating for the hubby means healthy eating for the wifey..and I could majorly go for a DQ blizzard right about now.

I am finally getting assigned some projects at my new job, and I am SO excited. In my old job, we were not well known to the community, got little public recognition, and just struggled to get out there. To be apart of a group that has people lining up to work with us is a very foreign experience to me, but I am loving it. Every day I am more positive that I made the right career choice, and this job is going to help take me to where I want to be.

Speaking of where I want to be..sometimes, I really just want to be a stay at home mom. I also know realistically that probably isn't my true calling..I love my baby more than anything in the world, but I love the feeling of purpose and contribution my job gives me. That being said..if I could provide for my family the way I want to on the salary earned working 20 hours a week..sign me up! 40 hours a week makes for a nice paycheck, but those weekdays off sure would be nice, too.

I could really use some days off. After taking a maternity leave and coming back right before the holidays, my vacation and time off was practically nonexistent. I have built it back up to a good spot, but am now already stockpiling my vacation days in anticipation of baby #2 (not pregnant). I feel like until my children are into toddlerhood and vacation days are no longer reserved for taking care of sick babies and preparing for pending babies, my vacation bank is basically a 'take care of baby time' bank. One day, I will take off a full week of work, just because the vacation time is there and I can. One day.

My blog is ugly. There, I said it. I mean, I like the color and layout well enough, especially considering I put a good amount of time to it back when I was on maternity leave. I have been debating finally biting the bullet and purchasing a template to make it look more legit, though. I just haven't been able to pull the trigger, though. 

I do not get the whole Lilly Pulitzer thing. I'm sorry, but I think it looks like the stuff I have always steered clear of in department stores for fear of looking too grandmotherly. I can get on board with the fun, bright colors, but I don't like the patterns, I don't like the cut and design of the dresses, I just don't like any of it. Which is fine, because it's expensive and I probably wouldn't be able to justify paying for it, anyway.

So many thoughts running through my head lately, but it's always great to it out into blogland. Everyone else, spill. What are some confessions we are all dying to get out!?

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